Thursday, April 24, 2008
i'm textually active again:D
yes yes yes yes.
i've applied for a couple of job.
hoping i'll get any of it so that i'll be able to pay my fees.
well.actually to CONVINCE my mom that i will pay half of my fees.
(psst i'm still talking to her about getting me into private mass comm)
its 5400 bucks bby.
imagine how much stuffs i can get with that sum of money-ALOT
also grandma's been pestering me to follow the WHOLE family to go on a holiday.(towards the ending of may)
like wth.i slowed talked her and told her i might be working so i've got no time for holidays.
damn do i feel bad.
I have to block out thoughts of you, so i don't loose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a pornography feel like home(YES but that doesn't mean i've been watching porn.)
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never try to reach me?
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that my friends helped me with.
The one thing that tore us apart is the one thing that I won't touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night while I was busy waging wars on myself.
And then i whispered "How could you do this to me?"
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that you're capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss, a target that I'm probably going to miss
oh boy, please at least show me something saying that you care.
for now i see you couldn't even be bothered by anything, anything at all.
how cruel can you be dude?
do you hate me so much?
or its just that you feel that your pride's not worth swallowing?
ex-love.
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