Monday, May 25, 2009
all i need now is just to be alone.
like really alone, and be somewhere where i could just walk and head nowhere, till my leg would sore and its; painless.
just the other day i did just that, with so many thoughts running through my head.
yesterday, i've visited an uncle at IMH, who's actually well loved by everyone around him.
to think that someone like him would suddenly went berserk, is unimaginable.
he's not insane nor is he mentally disable or whatsoever.
he's just too stressed out with his life, with too many things flowing through his head.
bottling up all his anger after all this years just doesn't help.
it just lead to something no one wants to see.something beyond scary?
i know its no good mountaining up all those thoughts and not letting it out.
not that i don't trust anyone nor do i not have people i trust.
i just don't choose to do so.
i have got my flaws.sometimes i know too well that people don't really much like me on how or what i am like.
but hey, you've got your flaws too. like the cliche always goes on saying, "no one is flawless"
do you practice that cliche or were you just saying it for the sake of saying it?
i'm not happy with the way people notices me.
its undesirable.
at least to me.
and to those who already knows me, what do you take me as?
huh?
use me when you want me then throw me far far away once you've think that i'm not afterall interesting?
or do you not have any balls after dumping me?
or am i a spare tyre?
or am i too boring?
or am i ugly?
or am i not worth being a friend with?
or what?!what?!WHAT!???
i shall believe in the saying, "i live for myself,once buried, i don't share my tomb with anyone but myself"
so at this point of time, i want to say, if you don't take me seriously, nor will i.
and if you think you know me, start by being a friend not stalk me around and start saying things untruthfully.
and if you think you've got brains, YOU DON'T.cause only no brainers listen to others.whats the use of a brain if you don't think.the horror, god.
ánd if you think i can't live without you, GO AND DIE, i'm sure once that's done, i'll still breathe just fine.
i can go on saying more and if(s) but then again i would bore you.
so i shall end it here.
BYE.
to jared: you've been awesome, but i seriously want to be alone.give me time?i'll get back to you soon. i love you , friend.
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