Tuesday, July 7, 2009
you were there right in front of me, look past through me, like as though i am a stranger to you.
yes we had out times in the past but must that be a berrier ?
i don't much care less about all the past shits.
yes, indeed i was very reluctant to meet or even see you.(i never liked the idea of me being lied to from my bestfriend that we were going to meet you.in fact i was very reluctant and angry)
but have you wondered why?
i knew from the start if we do come across each other, we're nothing but aquaintances.
isn't it such a pity that the bond we use to have is all gone?
put aside our past so called relationship, where's the friendship that we ought to have?
were your sayings of "maybe we are better off as friends" were more likely to be "maybe we'll just forget about us and be nothing but just aquaintances"?
dude, we've pretty much moved on, so shouldn't it not affect anything now?
i know its been very long, and only now i've found the courage and guts to point this out.
either way, neither of us made an effort. i know.
even if i did, the response i once gotten from you were pretty cold.
i don't want to ask why you were cold or maybe is cold towards me.
but yeah at the very least, i've gotten this load off my chest.
i hope, one day, things between us won't be as bad and get better.
i hope.
if you (to whoever it may concern) happens to read this, just know, i've never in my life hated you or hold grudges on you.
harsh words i might say before, but deep down i did't mean anything i've said.
they were merely out of anger and disappointment.
and yes,i can't deny i pretty much missed you,wholely as a friend.
everything i've said here is also pretty much the truth.
and i'm sorry i posted this.
i just need to, be it whether things will change or not.
BYE.
jared; happy?you made me do this. and thanks for making me all emotional again. tsk. but yeah somehow i feel good letting it out.
and i know you're going to say this again, "farna, its your god damn blog, its only right you vent your shits here if it makes you feel better..."
haha.i know i know. tskk. i love you. you know why? cause you let me borrow your balls. :DDD and now i've got huge balls.
yes we had out times in the past but must that be a berrier ?
i don't much care less about all the past shits.
yes, indeed i was very reluctant to meet or even see you.(i never liked the idea of me being lied to from my bestfriend that we were going to meet you.in fact i was very reluctant and angry)
but have you wondered why?
i knew from the start if we do come across each other, we're nothing but aquaintances.
isn't it such a pity that the bond we use to have is all gone?
put aside our past so called relationship, where's the friendship that we ought to have?
were your sayings of "maybe we are better off as friends" were more likely to be "maybe we'll just forget about us and be nothing but just aquaintances"?
dude, we've pretty much moved on, so shouldn't it not affect anything now?
i know its been very long, and only now i've found the courage and guts to point this out.
either way, neither of us made an effort. i know.
even if i did, the response i once gotten from you were pretty cold.
i don't want to ask why you were cold or maybe is cold towards me.
but yeah at the very least, i've gotten this load off my chest.
i hope, one day, things between us won't be as bad and get better.
i hope.
if you (to whoever it may concern) happens to read this, just know, i've never in my life hated you or hold grudges on you.
harsh words i might say before, but deep down i did't mean anything i've said.
they were merely out of anger and disappointment.
and yes,i can't deny i pretty much missed you,wholely as a friend.
everything i've said here is also pretty much the truth.
and i'm sorry i posted this.
i just need to, be it whether things will change or not.
BYE.
jared; happy?you made me do this. and thanks for making me all emotional again. tsk. but yeah somehow i feel good letting it out.
and i know you're going to say this again, "farna, its your god damn blog, its only right you vent your shits here if it makes you feel better..."
haha.i know i know. tskk. i love you. you know why? cause you let me borrow your balls. :DDD and now i've got huge balls.
.
