farna's pokpeks.

2009-09-09T14:44:00.001+08:00

i'm so use to using the other site.

so i've decided to move

bye,

2009-07-18T13:49:00.002+08:00

i miss that idiot so bad even though he's been rather mean and cold.
ass.

i won't be updating here much.
i've decided to settle down somewhere.
BYE.

2009-07-14T14:33:00.005+08:00

to aly and biman,
you guys are people i've known since those unglam days i can think of.
now that both of you are down with problems it hurts me looking you guys at this state.
especially aly, someone whom i always know as the cheerful one and biman, the one who never fails to put smiles and laughter into people's faces. and back then when i was rather down and fucked up over you guys know what. you two were mainly the two people who were there for me. now that you guys need someone, know that i am here. to biman, i know you'd rather keep it to yourself but letting it go somehow will make you feel better. i've told you time and again i'm just a phone call away. same goes to you aly ((:

cheer up you two!

my monday was spent with aly,did some catching up and yes we told each other stuffs.
nyaha, yes stuffs.
so unlike any other mondays, yesterday wasn't afterall blue.

so today's the 14th of july.
there's two people i know whom should be enjoying today.
one kamal two ikah.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU TWO.
meeting up with shikin and kamal later.

BYE.

2009-07-12T20:16:00.002+08:00

apparently, i'm still hoping that things will get better.

so i've pretty made full use of my one week.
with?
work and pretty much stuffs.yeah stuffs.
mon-i can't remember what i did
tues-working shift at cathay.
wed-working shift at cathay, and met pantat; kamal. whom i actually gave a treat at Botak Jones. and hung out for awhile with his friends.
thurs- store outing. celebrated both belated and advance birthday; ayuni and murni. then hung out for abit at clarke quay and had some sips of drinks till almost dawn. had an awesome time.
fri- the boy, booked out. i had work. met him and had some quality time that we've been missing the whole week. again had drinks.but this time round a couple more than just sips. then the boy decides to be all sweet and send me back home even though he lives pretty much the other end from where i stay and its very well past mid night which means midnight charges.but the driver was so kind to cut off the few cents.so only ten bucks from the place we were to my place. (baby i think he overheard our coversation and was very touched, haha :D)
sat- we couldnt get enough of each other. followed him to do some of his shopping over at zara. hung out for abit then headed back to his place. :D and then he had to book in. ):
today- i've decided to be good and stay home. i'm sorry rahim for ditching you at the very last minute. my mom's getting all noisy that i'm hardly home.

one fine night in the cab,
boy; do you think you could wait for me?
me; huh?
boy; as in wait till i'm done serving the nation and we could be officially together?
me; you mean to say we're unofficially together?i thought we're just dating?
boy; i do want us to be more than that, but..
me; but what?
boy; i don't want to worry about you so much while i'm back in camp.(looks out of the window)
me; (moves closer) you've been worrying? about what and why?
boy; whether you're taking good care of yourself? and because i care.
me; other than that?i'm sure you're worrying about something else.
boy; i'm also worried you're not able to wait.
me; (pecks on cheeks) i want to promise you one thing, if i'm not willing to wait, i'll say it and i won't cheat, my love.
boy; i'm holding on to that promise.

BYE.

2009-07-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

you were there right in front of me, look past through me, like as though i am a stranger to you.
yes we had out times in the past but must that be a berrier ?
i don't much care less about all the past shits.
yes, indeed i was very reluctant to meet or even see you.(i never liked the idea of me being lied to from my bestfriend that we were going to meet you.in fact i was very reluctant and angry)
but have you wondered why?
i knew from the start if we do come across each other, we're nothing but aquaintances.
isn't it such a pity that the bond we use to have is all gone?
put aside our past so called relationship, where's the friendship that we ought to have?
were your sayings of "maybe we are better off as friends" were more likely to be "maybe we'll just forget about us and be nothing but just aquaintances"?
dude, we've pretty much moved on, so shouldn't it not affect anything now?
i know its been very long, and only now i've found the courage and guts to point this out.
either way, neither of us made an effort. i know.
even if i did, the response i once gotten from you were pretty cold.
i don't want to ask why you were cold or maybe is cold towards me.
but yeah at the very least, i've gotten this load off my chest.
i hope, one day, things between us won't be as bad and get better.
i hope.
if you (to whoever it may concern) happens to read this, just know, i've never in my life hated you or hold grudges on you.
harsh words i might say before, but deep down i did't mean anything i've said.
they were merely out of anger and disappointment.
and yes,i can't deny i pretty much missed you,wholely as a friend.
everything i've said here is also pretty much the truth.
and i'm sorry i posted this.
i just need to, be it whether things will change or not.

BYE.

jared; happy?you made me do this. and thanks for making me all emotional again. tsk. but yeah somehow i feel good letting it out.
and i know you're going to say this again, "farna, its your god damn blog, its only right you vent your shits here if it makes you feel better..."
haha.i know i know. tskk. i love you. you know why? cause you let me borrow your balls. :DDD and now i've got huge balls.

2009-07-03T23:29:00.003+08:00

today, work has been awesome.
i don't know why, but everyone seems to be very hyped up.
including me.
but, sadly i had to miss all the fun as i'm not due to do closing shift today.
dang it.
two official off days for the weekends and i am LOVING it.
next week.
hectic schedule, okay maybe not.i'm just more occupied next week.
and OH! i'm going on attachment at sb cathay next tuesday and wednesday!! YAY!
haha. i bet you're wondering why i'm so excited.
but haha.i'll skip sharing my excitement.
:PPPPPPP

okay bye.

maybe, just maybe, i'm not at all ready.
forgive me if i were to upset you unknowingly.
i'm just not ready.
and i'm not lying or cheating.
try being in my shoes and try to visual it.
it hurts me to find out you're upset and knowing that you've got that mindset about me.
please.

2009-06-30T01:58:00.002+08:00

currently on the phone with aidil.
had the whole day to myself.
tv.breathe.eat.breathe.games.phone.and i miss FQ.
bahhhhhhhhhh.

freaking stay when all else were to leave.
as for now, i can't juggle my time between ------------------------------ ahhhhhhhhh
HOW?!
why must this happen at one go?
WHY?!
so annoying.

2009-06-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

still under considerations.
we'll see how things goes.

2009-06-24T12:18:00.005+08:00

girls, where are you, i miss you smelly humans

yesterday;
after work met fir, aly(after soooo long) gab, and another of aly's friend.
went for shisha, ambrosia.
well, somehow aly was feeling rather rich yesterday as her pay just got in.haha.
so hung out for a bit.
then headed home.
only to stay awake by his text messages(: ( aly went, "farna, not another guy again." haha.please eh its after so long and its finally another one. :P)
2 more days baby 2 more days hahahaha.
i hope hope hope there won't be any last minute cancellations AGAIN.

later heading down for IR casino seminar thingy.
apparently i received the message this morning.
it went;
Dear sir/madam,
first of foremost thank you for your interest in our don't miss the golden IR opportunities preview. BLABLABLA.haha.(lazy to type out everything.its kinda draggy)
venue; 61 robinson road robinson centre.
heh.
one sit is reserved for me.haha.
i got this feeling that i'll be sitting there putting on deaf ears.
maybe i'll errr pay attention for a bit but like always i'll start to get lost in my daydreams.
HEH.

and tomorrow, TRANSFORMERS!! yay!!
minus the IR thing i've got and will have two days of awesome action packs.hahahahahaha.

okay.

BYE.

2009-06-22T16:46:00.002+08:00

one word, lost.
help?

me is happy.
talked to FQ last night.
me is to wait 4 more days.
me is opening up again.
me is glad.
me is hoping for more.
me is hoping it turns out well.
please?
fingers crossed.
me think me like him.
(:

BYE.

2009-06-19T20:50:00.006+08:00

meet fir, my annoying basket friend+colleague=gunduballs.

tgif?

nahh friday to me seems the same and normal like any other day.

i'm still currently over at store.

even though i've end work close to 3 hours ago.

with closers like fir, afiq and errr some attachment partner, sya i don't mind staying over.

so today basically; work,breathe,eat,breathe,work,breathe,home,sleep,breathe.

TIRED yet bored.

thursday;

met fiqah at 2 plus at orchard, had lunch.

walked around town in the hope of getting a new job or perhaps a 2nd job to actually support some stuffs that we are so called doing for our future.

yeah , hahaha.

so had lunch at far east and set on foot from far east to wisma to cathay to city hall to marina.

so over all our last stop was club marc, i set eyes on this pair of heels got it and fiqah suggested that we should try asking if they are IN NEED of workers.haha.

so we asked the oh so friendly sales person, while i made my payments, who seems EXTREMELY nice to us for forms.

he willingly gave us.

well, only to know later on, that he gave us those forms to get hold of our numbers.

yeah.

so then on we headed to store to attend store meeting.

then dinner.

then home.

plan to head to butter factory was cancelled.

i'm fine with that.

plan for FQ to pick me up after store meeting cancelled.

i'm kinda disappointed.

i was looking forward to it so so much.

oh wells.

he's going to help me out with my portfolio.

:DDDDDD grinssssssss.

he's just ever so sweet.

BYE.

2009-06-15T22:52:00.002+08:00

at times i just don't get what's life is all about.
at first, it'll all seem oh so heavenly.
everything and everyone around you seems nice and all but the next thing you know, it all turns out bad like as if it was a curse in the first place.
i just don't get it you know.
i want everything back to its original place, where everything and everyone fits perfectly.
or is it just me?
i just don't fit in. isn't it? spare me your thoughts? anyone?anyone at all?

2009-06-12T21:35:00.003+08:00

work.was.exhausting.i.need.to.catch.a.break.
shall go for facial soon.plus.a visit to the masseuse.

tomorrow's saiful's last working shift.(have fun working at universal studios and er happy building up your career in NIE.haha. Cikgu Saiful.)
so a few things are being lined up for him, he better remember all of us i tell you.
(next up's ayuni, leaving the system.THE HORROR.)
supposedly had plans to meet up with ex sb pw partners but gosh some seems to be pretty occupied.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. just so be it.
i'll just go on with the flow.
and yes, sb pw is re-opening soon.i heard its in september?
i don't know.but i do wish to go back, please?
before i actually make up my mind to quit.seriously.

i'm sorry if i've caused too much trouble, forgive me?

BYE.

2009-06-10T14:32:00.003+08:00

yesterday; out with fiqah to ikea to get a stool for store.had dinner.meatballs.home.long walk.satisfied.ignores all text messages and phone calls after 12 midnight.stare out the window.stone.

so today, hanging out with ayuni, saiful and some others for karaoke, cash studios.
all money earned is well spent(as in spent within days and not on stuffs needed.yeah that kind of spent.)
and i've got to stop that.
seriously.
or maybe just maybe i really should get a new job.
and, start worrying which school i want to head to and stop being a bummer.
the horror.

BYE.

i suddenly kept on thinking of ex-boyfriend.HUGE BUMMER.farna stop it.

2009-06-09T23:18:00.003+08:00

fine, you all go your ways, i'll go mine.
if that makes you humans even happier.
i'm tired of trying to keep up with standards and having to keep up with others' desires.
what about mine?

someone you thought you knew, but actually you don't.

2009-06-07T16:57:00.002+08:00

impromptu clubbing last night.
somewhat for a lot of reasons i wanted to get myself high and not wasted.
so i did.
i very well know what kind of a drinker i am.
gulp down everything at once, there you'll have a very high; farna.
like what fir has mentioned in his blog, whatever happens inside the club stays inside.
but for sure, one thing i won't want to miss sharing, i just saw the cutest guy on earth. (exaggeration)
haha.but really he is damn bloody cute, :DD
pst; i purposely groped his butt while passing behind him. :D and the awesome-est eye contact i've ever had was with him likeeeee ahhhh meltssssssssss.you should see the way he smiles. heh heh heh
i so want to bump into him the next time i'm errrr there?haha
okay BYE.

btw; fir, he did look at me. stop denying that.haha :P

2009-06-01T14:30:00.002+08:00

i'll have to be alone now.

my mind's in a swirl.

BYE

2009-05-31T22:27:00.009+08:00

i'll need time and space for myself in moderation.(which means i promise not to get too emotional)
yes, i still need time to compose myself.(to be much much much better)
i might seem my usual self.
but you've got no idea.
i've got one person in mind i'd love to share my shits with.
but will he listen?
doubt so.

ignore my face, please.
that's saiful, the first person ever, when i first came to starbucks kallang leisure park, i'm comfortable with. as in, we could talk almost about anything. well, one example would be we actually seek for each others advice when it comes to girls when it comes to him.haha and vise versa for me. he's leaving the system ): goshhh. kallang's going to be short of one hyper bastard. haha i meant well here eh.
i wish him luck at NIE. :DD adios amigos we'll all miss you saiful. well, to the others especially.
just be ready on your last day for you-know-what-you-ain't-going-no-where-just-start-running-in-circles.
:DDD grinssssss.

to top it up; i can't wait to meet fellow ex colleagues on the 13th. :DDD
its been eons since i last met them.i hope so much that everyone could make it.
FIR YOU BETTER COME I TELL YOU.

BYE.

2009-05-27T19:14:00.003+08:00

had store meeting yesterday, about the same all yadadadaaaa(s)
after that headed down simpang for late dinner.
but i just had to be down.
fir, afiq and rahim, thank god, were there to keep me away from all those thoughts any further.
to afiq, thanks for asking me 32894732098 times if i'm fine and you knew i wasn't even tho i said i was. your antiques are enough to keep me far from being not okay. :D
to fir and rahim, thanks for being able to listen to my crap and yes for obeying my favor. i owe you guys gazillion for baring with my nonsense :DDD
to jared, go shave your balls, cause i want to meet you soon, i miss you and i love you. :D
to adie, thanks for your late night crap and your woaw, you know i know. (:

i know i've been shitty, i just need time to compose myself.
yeah i know very well, life: is a choice i can live with.

my Ecstasy.them.

BYE.

2009-05-25T10:32:00.002+08:00

all i need now is just to be alone.
like really alone, and be somewhere where i could just walk and head nowhere, till my leg would sore and its; painless.
just the other day i did just that, with so many thoughts running through my head.
yesterday, i've visited an uncle at IMH, who's actually well loved by everyone around him.
to think that someone like him would suddenly went berserk, is unimaginable.
he's not insane nor is he mentally disable or whatsoever.
he's just too stressed out with his life, with too many things flowing through his head.
bottling up all his anger after all this years just doesn't help.
it just lead to something no one wants to see.something beyond scary?
i know its no good mountaining up all those thoughts and not letting it out.
not that i don't trust anyone nor do i not have people i trust.
i just don't choose to do so.
i have got my flaws.sometimes i know too well that people don't really much like me on how or what i am like.
but hey, you've got your flaws too. like the cliche always goes on saying, "no one is flawless"
do you practice that cliche or were you just saying it for the sake of saying it?
i'm not happy with the way people notices me.
its undesirable.
at least to me.
and to those who already knows me, what do you take me as?
huh?
use me when you want me then throw me far far away once you've think that i'm not afterall interesting?
or do you not have any balls after dumping me?
or am i a spare tyre?
or am i too boring?
or am i ugly?
or am i not worth being a friend with?
or what?!what?!WHAT!???
i shall believe in the saying, "i live for myself,once buried, i don't share my tomb with anyone but myself"
so at this point of time, i want to say, if you don't take me seriously, nor will i.
and if you think you know me, start by being a friend not stalk me around and start saying things untruthfully.
and if you think you've got brains, YOU DON'T.cause only no brainers listen to others.whats the use of a brain if you don't think.the horror, god.
ánd if you think i can't live without you, GO AND DIE, i'm sure once that's done, i'll still breathe just fine.
i can go on saying more and if(s) but then again i would bore you.
so i shall end it here.
BYE.

to jared: you've been awesome, but i seriously want to be alone.give me time?i'll get back to you soon. i love you , friend.

2009-05-20T11:54:00.002+08:00

i miss my long hair(!)911

spent my day yesterday IM-ing with ama.again
official msn buddies.
woooo.
i miss herrrrr.alooooooooooooooT.
on thursday i won't be able to entertain her much.work(!)
i'm dreading to go to work now.like lazy ahhh.( pst; i'm getting another job :x muahaha.)
but fret not, this friday i shall go meet ama for dinner.
YAY.
-.-
after meeting fir for awhile yesterday with the purpose of transferring photos(i forgot to bring down my USB) went for supper with kak ida, abg fazli and my sis at boon keng for soup kambing.-.-
out of so many things.

abg fazli; farha try the konek kambing ah, nice know.
me; for real ah?

hahaha.i still dare not try it yet.anyone want to try it with me?
haha.tell me okay?
god this past few days so many people have been having cravings.
now i'm craving for chapati at old railway. drools.
want to come along?haha.

BYE xo

2009-05-18T12:05:00.008+08:00

colleague turned friend(:

HAPPY NINETEENTH FIR!!!!
hahaha.
may you be blessed with many good years ahead.okaykay?
lets go dancing again.HAHAHA.-.-

i've got no work today so spent my day lazing.
i was and still am practically laughing by myself while chatting with ama now on msn.
so funny.
& a m el sa'ad & says:
today im like selenger to the mac
max
no lah
different
juz nw my boss ask me take the perrier water
i brought him cereal
haahaaha
perrier n cereal jauh sakk bunyi
then i laugh like crazy, lucky he leppakk one
coss ang mohh so cn chill
aahahhaha

Farnana. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
ama what the hell were you thinking abt
aiyah not only today

& a m el sa'ad & says:
i also dunno
ahhhhhahaaha

Farnana. says:
any other day also selenger
hahahaha

& a m el sa'ad & says:
hhahaha eh eh
u speak for urself also eh
ahahha

Farnana. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
talking abt me being selenger reminds me of at work on sat
hahaha

& a m el sa'ad & says:
hhaha wat happen

Farnana. says:
i confidently called back to faliq for here toll soy choi latte.
hahaha
w/o even realising it

& a m el sa'ad & says:
ahahahha
at least soy choi
i gt call bck b4 so chai
whahaaahha
merepekk nk mampos
i bet falliq make fun of u after tat

Farnana. says:
yalah he and another partner nv tell me know.they make me call back again
then i say the same thing again
i was like whats wrong?

& a m el sa'ad & says:
whahahah

another topic was about china people being hired at starbucks and the fact that she don't like sepet and china people.(no offence)

& a m el sa'ad & says:
yeaa i anti china
hahhaah
i dun like sepet ppl also, dunno y i cn end up with one
wahhahaah

Farnana. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
he only sepet
not china
hahaha

& a m el sa'ad & says:
yeaa same
muke cine
hahaha
n body of a bangla
hahah hairy
suchh a weird combo

HAHAHAHAHA.lol

BYE xo

2009-05-17T21:01:00.006+08:00

i bet you can't tell that i was bloody tired.i'm good.

that guy in green is a stranger.

the aftermaths.nyahahaha

editted

i am very tired even tho i've slept for 7 hrs.
the moment i got back this morning i couldn't get to sleep.
so here how things went yesterday.
started work at 5pm.
work as per normal with afiq faliq and gou yi.
like always i'm the victim or the subject to be used as a joke.
-.-
to faliq especially.
the moment me and afiq starts to be alone and have our own conversation he'd go, "kat sini jugak korang nak beromantic romantic"which translates to something like this," at work you both choose to get all romantic."something like that ah. i suck translating malay to english.
so after work headed down to clarke quay to meet fir, ana, ayuni and rahim.
rebel.reached at 2.50am.
eventho i was superbly tired, i know i don't wish to disappoint fir(birthday boy) and also the fact i had to pass store key to rahim, if not i'll get slaughtered by faliq.
at first i didn't plan to get in cause there's left with a few hours before rebel closes.
and i'd waste 25 bucks.
but somehow i was SOOOOO lucky to bump to an old friend, alwyn :D
and he signed me in and i got in for FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
yes free.
luckiest person on earth i tell you.
at 5am exactly 12 hours after work, me fir and ana went home by cab.

BYE xo

2009-05-14T17:38:00.002+08:00

plans of going to sentosa with aly was canceled due to bad weather and lazyness.
we've decided to sleep in instead of meeting up.
but somehow she ended up heading out.
but not me.
my headache's not gone.
i need my rest so that i'll be able to work tomorrow.
i know so much that johnny wasn't happy that i left early yesterday.
bahh~
so its a stay-home-get-myself-all-bored day.
thank god kamal was online so we were looking for his shoes online.
found a couple that he likes.
but still couldn't decide.
so in the end we've decided to meet up next week to go look for it.
i'm so nice, getting him a VERY advance birthday gift.
haha.well, somehow a kind of boost for him for the skate competition.
and also, to those who've been saying all the go get some rest(s), get well soon(s),go doctor(s), thanks for the concern.i'm sure i'm fine.maybe perhaps just tired yeah?
its just some headache.nothing so critical.
(:

BYE xo.

2009-05-13T22:44:00.003+08:00

okay so, i'm home instead of being at work.
not that i like it so much not being at work okay.
its just that i got this terrible headache that kills me.
till now.
i think i got tumour growing in my brain.
seriously.
the pain's not going away.
even after faliq told me to try his remedy for headaches.
which is; 100 plus and a glass of water.(recommended by doctor)
heh. i don't know if its true.but yeah worth giving it a try.

i know i shouldn't be online, instead i should be resting and sleeping.

i will.

soon.

anyway i'm spreading something on kamal's behalf.

there's a skateboard competition coming up next month.

yes june.

date im not too sure.i forgot what kamal told me.

but anyway, there'll be bands performing like plain sunset.

do come down.if you've got the time.or if you wanna join in the competition or something.

i'll update stuffs if i were ever to get updated again.

Syed

how come u're not at work?

10:41pmFarnana

i wasnt feeling well.

so faliq all got someone to replace me.

and yeah here i am home.

sakit bangettt

10:42pmSyed

so who replace u?

10:42pmFarnana

si sape tu gao yi.

yeah him.

10:42pmSyed

hahaah.

okay cool.

10:42pmFarnana

i dont know why

10:42pmSyed

u ah, sick go work for what eh

10:42pmFarnana

but i think i got tumour in my brain

10:43pmSyed

then can online some more

go rest ah

eh, u don't anyhow can

10:43pmFarnana

tempted.

10:43pmSyed

go doc ah

10:43pmFarnana

dont want ah

waste money ah

maybe tmr it'll be fine

i hope

10:43pmSyed

ok, then u die.

go check la sia..

if its at critical stage..

god..

10:44pmFarnana

wahh.can somemore say what if its at a critical stage

10:45pmSyed

hey ive been tru cancer and i dont want u to experience what i had..

so yeah, before anything, better check kan.

10:46pmSyed

hello...

10:46pmFarnana

i'll give it till tmr

maybe it'll go away tmr

if not then i go

faliq even made me drink 100 plus

10:47pmSyed

haha, doeesnt work right, awhile only

10:47pmFarnana

it didnt even work awhile for me.

it didnt work at all.

2009-05-13T12:49:00.002+08:00

ahhhh fuck fuck fuck.i miss my long hair.my hair's shitty now.GROW hair GROW.before i start pouring grow milk all over.

recap of yesterday.
was awaken by aly's text message.
replied and she ended up calling back.

aly; FARNA!follow me go get paint?
me; huh?(sleepy tone)paint for what?
aly; paint as in tattoo.
me; OHHHHHH.yeah what time?i go get ready first?i'll get back to you once i'm done.
aly; okay set.

so met her at my area's bus stop and took 59 to tpy thinking we'll catch a train ride to town from there.
but, it just had to rain-heavily.
so took 59 all the way to bishan.
got her card topped up and headed down to dhouby.
went to park lane but guess what?the shop shifted elsewhere.so we had to bus down to haji lane to get to the new shop.
i swear aly needs alot of coaxing just to keep her mind made up to get her tattoo.
she almost backed up.
BUT.
i managed to get her stick to her decision.
so she did.
hours of thinking of how painful it'll be but end up its nothing.
silly girl.haha.
after which, we had an early dinner at yoshinoya and from there i went to work.
work.one word.BITCHY.
shall not elaborate.heart pain.

BYE xo.

2009-05-11T15:14:00.004+08:00

PS:i miss these girls.anyone can help me kidnap them?

how long again was i not here?
months.
one, i've got tired of all the distractions i can ever get here.
two, work.
three, i'm occupied.
four, i got alot of catching up to do.

want to see me, come find me.
where?
you'll know where.
you'll just need to do some searching.
heh.(:
you'll get something in return.
really.
:D

fir's birthday coming.
and i justtttttttt had to work on that bloody day.
i hope faliq'll allow me to go off early, instead of ending at 1am. maybe 12?
heh :x
i so want to join in the fun.
(((((:
and perhaps get wasted(its been awhile yknow)

BYE xo.

2009-04-09T15:23:00.002+08:00

there i found myself questioning again, thinking every minute every second, of what to do.

2009-04-05T21:46:00.002+08:00

so my first shift at kallang wasn't that bad after all.
murni and syafiqah had been awesome.
got along pretty fine even though its only the first day.
i didn't mention anything about getting along fine with afiq cause we're primary sch friends.
so i didn't expect much out of him.
minus the fact he's much more sweeter than i thought he is.
:D
___________________
heh heh.
fiqah went home early that day cause she was having menstrual cramps.
so it was me afiq and murni.
murni is ever so kecoh.
she could be heard from outside eventho she's in the backroom(another reason would also be because the place was quiet.)
i was such a gundu. it feels very alien.
its as tho i was born only yesterday.
but thank god afiq was sweet enough to help with some stuffs that was supposedly my job to do.thanks to murni as well for having the patience(well to both actually)
however that day lan had to come at the wrong timing.
everyone had the wrong idea about us but thank god when we were doing trash run afiq asked me about who lan was(MERE EX COLLEAGUES NOTHING MORE)
haha.
:D
okay put aside work.
today's my birthday.
and i'm finally 18.
wow.
thats interesting.
but its very bleargggggggggggggggggh.
thanks for all the birthday wishes guys.(only god knows what i'm thinking now)
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

2009-04-02T12:46:00.004+08:00

finally sb pw closed down.
for good?
i'm not too sure.
i'm starting my first shift at kallang tomorrow.
schhuuckss.
oh wells.
i've got some pictures of tuesday.

i'm going to miss these bunch alot.
really.
we're having a store outing soon on the 10th.
(:
BYE

2009-03-30T09:54:00.003+08:00

store's closing tomorrow.
that should be interesting.
what ever happened the past few days was interesting as well.
both in a good and bad way tho.
R made a move to talk about something yesterday.
HE DID.wow.
for the like third time?
i guess.
but i just had to you know had to stand there and stare at him blankly.
conversation goes like this.

him the store's closing this tuesday right?(gives a concern face)
me huh?(turn to look at him and around me then back at him)oh.yeah.(tried to smile)
him (stands and waits and tried to say smth)errrr, can i have a cup of ice water?
me (typical of him, turn to him and smile) sure. (: (hands him a GRANDE cup of ice water.I'M SO NICE. :D if i could i would give him VENTI. haha)

trust me, i'm such a gundu.
why didn't i just go on with the flow.
haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
i should have said so are you going to come down this tuesday or smth rightttttttt.
urghhh.
i so have to make use of the other way of talking to him.
now that i have the means to.
and that he's given the so called sign of approval.
and the fact he wrote it nicely and neatly on a piece of paper.
haha.so cute.(i swear he has a nice handwriting.)
-.-
wth.
all thanks to lan.
for something.
you know i know.
that should be enough.
:P

btw my phone's on service.
so pardon me if i've not replied to any text messages or calls.

2009-03-25T08:22:00.002+08:00

the truth trust me, didn't hurt me at all.
promise.

i didn't have a wink of sleep at all.
first, god mom and god dad brought me out for a movie.
then, later on god sis and her husband brought me out for midnight pool at orchid country club.
after that, chilled around kallang and talked about shits and all till about 5 in the morning.
and now im back at god parents'

also, in a few days time bye bye parkway hello kallang leisure.
pfffffffffffft.
besides that, i didn't realise i'm turning 18 next sunday.
wtf?!
thats fast.
OMG.
:D
i don't know why the fuck i'm smiling.
okay nvm.
BYE.

i miss everyone that i could ever think of.

2009-03-20T01:04:00.002+08:00

i hardly slept last night.
got up at 7am.
got ready and head off for work.
yeah.
and then i stayed all the way till abt 11.30 in the evening to do some of the last minute drawings for tmr's coffee presentation.
i'm beat.
oh never mind.
anyway, i'll be going kallang leisure after store closes down.
urghhhh.
no.
):
________________.
BYE.

2009-03-16T12:00:00.003+08:00

15 more days to go.
dang it.
trust me going to bigsplash was once one of my top choices of the stores i wanted to go to.
but then since dear Boss initially said that they don't really need partners so therefore i choose another alternative.
yes.
i've already made up my mind.
haiye.
i shall only say which store im heading to once its confirmed.
next week's sb pw's coffee presentation.
theme: home sweet home.
dress code: hahahahaha PJ.
i swear i will look stupid walking around parkway in Pjs.(its just like seeing me getting ready to hit the sack.)
anyway.
my i-can't-tell-what-the-hell-she-was-thinking mother just bought me a desktop as my advance birthday gift.
i swear i tell you i don't really need it.
whats more there's no internet connection at the moment yet.
pffffft.
for now, the desktop seems to be just another wardrobe to me.
ohhhh.
wellllll.
(:
BYE.

2009-03-04T11:24:00.003+08:00

sore throat for days.
and finally the flu's kicking it.
i need a pill.
a pill that cures me within seconds.
urgh.
throat's killing me.
i'm heading down store later, not that i don't have anything better to do.
but i got to attend some meeting.
one meeting after another.
yesterday was store meeting.
talking abt when's our store's closing and its being brought forward.
to the 31st!
(:
more time to ________.
hahahaha.
and i sort of found out which store i'm heading to next month.
(:
as for the next few weeks.
i have to get more skin on my skin.
make it thick.
why?haha.
(((((:
i'll start of talking to his bestfriend. :D

2009-03-03T16:42:00.001+08:00

dot.
i hate to find out its such a small world out there.
bye.
psst; i dig smart boys.(:

2009-03-02T12:57:00.002+08:00

up to date, its 23 more days and counting.
and i hate it.
A LOT.
sigh.
if only there's a time stopper.
i would want to stop time when ever i want it to.
i've already had a few regrets.
now, i can't afford to.
i don't want to go, "dang it, i should have"
no.
i want to make a decision.
now.
and fast.
bye.

2009-02-26T22:01:00.002+08:00

trust me, i've got no life this pass few days.(i'm at store now updating this, haha, sheesh)
i've been coming down to store more often than i usually do.
maybe its because it's closing down next month-25th march to be precise.
probable.
I AM SO SAD.
really i am.
the thought of leaving this place, the people i've bonded and grew to love, the customers(one in particular especially)just gets me all urgh~
also, i've got the sudden urge to know __ better.
or else i'll leave store with much much much regrets.
talking about __ i've been dreaming of him the pass three days.2 days of the same exact dream but the other just about him.
i know i sound like a MAD woman.
who cares.
heh.
i really really really don't want to leave this place.
NO.
):
talk to me soon R.
(:
BYE.

2009-02-21T14:37:00.006+08:00

one word, bitchy.

2009-02-14T00:44:00.003+08:00

can you tell which one's fake?(:

trust me, going to live and loaded was the last thing in my mind.
YES.i went for it last tuesday.
why?
cause aly won tickets.
how?
you don't have to know.
i must say the crowd was awesome.(groupies)
met a couple of new friends.
AFRO guy. :D
ignore that.
was thinking of going again, for cheap thrill.haha.
cheap thrill of being a groupy for a day.heh
there's pictures.
but i ain't going to post it here :D
oh well.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY, even tho i know its overrated.
EVERYONE EVERYWHERE is celebrating;
without actually knowing the true meaning of valentines day.
pffffffft.
anyway.GOODNIGHT.
much loves, farna. XO (:

imR.(:

2009-02-03T13:02:00.007+08:00

ahhhhh.
i'm feeling rather bleargh~
for some reason.
time check:1.46 in the afternoon and i just woke up.
today's pei wen's chalet thinking of going only at around 10, meet the others at store and take an's mini bus there.
i don't know.
i'm sooooo sooo sooo tired.
but i'd feel bad for not turning up.
urgh.round it all up, by the time they all finish closing up store we'll only leave parkway at 12.30 and only reach aloha at around 1?
i don't mind staying overnight but i gotta work tomorrow.
gahhhh.
so to go or not to go?
besides my main purpose was to go there and get high.haha.
other than that, yes to show face.
conclusion: i might NOT go?
oh well.
yesterday the pest control came to store to get rid of all the mosquitoes.like finally.
and i took one of biman's last few sticks of ciggarettes.he's so nice.sayang kau :D
__ came and i got all that jiggly waggly feeling rushing up my spinal cord.
saffy had this small conversation with __'s bestfriend and was asking him what school he and __ got into while i was making his drink(everyone backed off and insisted i make the drink).i was standing there trying not to smile and make a fool out of myself like spiling for example.haha
anyway they both got into ngee ann.VERY BROMANTICS.(azhar and shahrul's term of being so called "gay")
too close for comfort.
heh.
so yeah.
tomorrow i'm finally doing closing with azhar boy.
:D
ciao.

2009-01-31T14:45:00.001+08:00

Dare I ask you this?

Where do you stand as a come and go acquaintance?

I’ve been pondering around this bond for sometime now.

Where have you been hiding in? Is it in the tall forest?

Won’t he listen to the voices calling his name?

Will he attempt?

I’ve been laying on the other side, where they are all waving “goodbye” behind a fake frown

2009-01-31T12:26:00.003+08:00

tars' clogging my lungs.

god does the week pass so quickly.
its a Saturday, and i just have to work.
gebeng.
if its not because of the money i would want to take the day off and bum around?
I'm tired as it is and the thought of work just makes me even more tired.
I'm proud to announce that i gladly welcome people to visit me at work.
and I'll try my best to get you guys free drinks :D
on account that you'll be there to entertain me.
:)
*moans*

i ________________ *sigh*

and oh i miss ama, i miss raping her, i miss her boobs and i miss her butt :D
come visit store soon gebeng.

2009-01-29T17:28:00.004+08:00

supposedly i had to take over a colleague's shift today for opening, but thank god i manged to get back my off day.
me and nadine have yet to look for shikin's gift and have that peranakan dinner together.
i know its abit the very late to get shikin her birthday present only like now.
i did try to find time to look for it.but its either i'm broke or i don't know if she'll like it.
so i've decided to go look for it with nadine next week.promise.
sorry baby, we had to procrastinate looking for your present.
but yeah we did spent the day together with her for ben and jerry's the other day.
(:
i'm glad she loved it.

anyway, today both grandmas came over for lunch-steamboat!
heh.
my parents were being weird.
both took the day off today.
and by chance it's my off day too.
anyway i think i should stop procrastinating too much.
i need to go apply for my Os soon.and i mean it.
bye.

i miss konek.(don't get me wrong.i'm not craving for a dick.)

2009-01-29T11:35:00.004+08:00

okay so i was exaggerating about the i will be away for a VERY long period of time part.
I'm not aching to blog anything actually.
cause i know people might be assuming my blog died.
actually it did for awhile, a long while.
I've been living live to the fullest like one mad woman-okay not.
I've been working my ass off actually.
and i sure will retake my Os for sure.
i know i suck previously.
stupid naive and all-in everything.
I've already wasted a whole year last year, bumming around.
not this year, i hope.
I'm going to be plain Jane.
no one extraordinary yet noticeable.
nehhhh.
so i guess that's enough to feed your brains.
valentine's coming and everyone every where's busy planning.wth -.- can't you just go with the flow?
I'm off.

i've missed some of those days back then.
like way way way back then when sixteen was too young for everything especially to think wisely if your ex boyfriend was really the one you can't get over with...urgh.
shucks.

2009-01-26T14:04:00.001+08:00

and oh! i have a thing for a regular customer of mine. [:

2009-01-26T11:19:00.003+08:00

trust me, i died and i'm happier.
[:

work, drunken nights, friends, endless poker nights, cigarettes, parties and i'm turning 18 real soon, a new start i believe.
that's all you all need to know.

and also trust me, i'll be away for a very very very VERY long time.

and oh! i've changed my cell phone number. bye.

2008-11-05T22:15:00.003+08:00

:D
2 more days and my pay's in.
oh yes.
first thing in my list; shopping baby shopping.(date me[:)
friday, heading down for sheesha with ama, saffy and charlene all.(still unsure of the plans tho.)
sunday, sheesha with the usuals.(yes yes yes)
yes i know i'm back smoking, but please give me a break.
i'm old enough to know whats bad.
so don't worry.
to mom, if you happen to read this(you came across my blog once and i don't know if you still do) i'm sorry for being a bad daughter.bleargh~
to shikin, i'm sorry baby, you've tolerated me and you gave me chances but i am still being a pain in the ass and stubborn.bleargh~
okay shhhhh.
i'm going blank.
i can't think properly of what to update about actually.
my brain cells are slowly dying.
die farna die.
all those tar is clogging up your brain.
=.=
deebo the gift dragon. =.="

2008-11-04T14:05:00.002+08:00

off day.
yes.
resting.
text messaging sam to keep him awake in class.
tsk tsk tsk that boy.
:D
meet soon ass.
[:
i've got so much to say but i just don't know how to put it all into words.
my brain died?
i think so.
yesterday i requested SM for lesser working days and he stared at me and say, "yeah i should give you lesser working days next week,"
me," 3?"
him,"why three?"
me,"okay 4?" stares at him.
him, " okay fine. 4 it is, i wouldn't want you to look like a ghost and scare my customers away."
i feel like choking him.
nvm.
i can't wait for Starbucks' open house this December.
BYE.

freedom.

2008-11-03T10:52:00.001+08:00

morning!
:D
morning madness with kamal.
msn,him, webcam.
and jared, still annoys me.
imy dude.
work's been VERY busy.
okay i'm off to work now.
smell you people later.
BYE.

2008-11-01T12:21:00.004+08:00

boys and their fuck-ed up bull shits.
urgggghh~
lies after lies after lies after lies.
_l_
what crap man. don't you guys ever get tired?
anyway, i can't be bothered.
i am happy(at least for now) as i am now.
work's been fine.
more customers coming in since its like i'm-getting-my-pay-check period of the month and the fact that the new Christmas promos are going on.
so this means more fuck-ed up customers.
bahh~
after work yesterday, i bump-ed into Muammar and William.
stayed awhile with them before heading home.
and i swear Jared's cute.
=.=
if you're wondering who he is, he's one customer who regular-ed Starbucks.
and he is also one hell of an irritant. :D
and to those whom i've promised i've quit smoking i'm so sorry i'm back at it.
i know i've broken my promise and i know i deserve all those thousands of slaps and smacks.
i'm just all messed up.
i need a listening ear.(someone who'll just not say a word but just listen to all my bullshits)

2008-10-30T10:34:00.002+08:00

oh how i wish i could go back in time,
to the time when everything was fine and i knew i could be happy.
ever since he left there's been an open hole in my chest.
tho things went on fine the past few months, never did i expect its hard for me to go thru October days thinking of all those memories.
everything is different now and why are you so distant now? do you know how i wish you could just drop by and ask me how am i? can't you just show at the very least that you care?huh?
oh how i miss those times when we were friends.the first time when every thing seems as tho you were tailor made for me. turn back the time for me please. oh how i dread November the 10th.

2008-10-29T10:28:00.002+08:00

met shikin after work yesterday.
she came down all the way just to meet me.
awww~
ily shikin.
talk about stuffs, did my part as a good listening friend and i told her about stuffs as well,
stuffs i've been wanting to tell ex boyfriend.
okay so, i stayed on at the bus stop with her to wait for gunduballs birhang to text her.
let a few bus went by.
and at abt 7.30? she left and i headed home.
i was being a busted again yesterday.
shan't elaborate why.
and i can't be bothered.
i'm sorry yet again shukur.
BYE.

i'm giving up on myself.

2008-10-27T21:00:00.003+08:00

i'm tired.
i want a comfy shoulder.
a nice scenery.
cold breeze.
and him.
anyone?

btw;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FADHLI.
[:
you've always been the one who's able to put smiles to people's faces w/o fail and also at the same time bring laughters with all your stupid jokes and antiques.
i wish you all the best and all the luck in everything you do.
heh heh heh :D

sometimes i just wish i've had a flawless life.
i'm missing something.

2008-10-26T11:46:00.002+08:00

happy birthday nadine!
even though we've got close in only a few months(hardly a year YET), i do think you're genuine.
you're someone worth being close with. All those bitching and gossiping just makes us closer. You never failed to cheer me up during those times and you also never failed to put smiles on your friends' faces. ily. (:

2008-10-25T14:01:00.001+08:00

work had been the bitchiest yesterday.
why?
let me tell you why.
first thing in the morning, it rained.
non stop.
then the stupid lamarzuko espresso machine make things hard for us and we've had a hard time preparing the drinks.
after that, 3 customers were being a pain in the ass and were so rude and bitchy.
fuck.
one lady in particular was being hard on amalina, "i don't need your stinking nose to smell my cup of coffee." wtf la woman.
after all the crowd had subsided, the POS register's turn to be a bitch.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh~
never mind put those aside.
i made some delivery yesterday and who'd guess i'd bump into ahmad again.
:DD
then met shikin and birhang all for awhile.
then full stop i went home.
i've got no time for web stuffs, like going online and yadaa daa daa now.
but i'll make time for it once in a while.
BYE.

2008-10-23T22:11:00.006+08:00

i miss my OLD hair.HAH

imissyouimissyouimissyouryanimissyou.
ahh fuck mann fuck.
lesser phone calls now.
and we can't even meet.
now, i want you here so bad.
why do i get the feeling you'll be gone forever?
):
don't do this to me.
someone i cared very much for, left me months back, actually almost a year back.
now, not you.please.
i know there's nothing i can do to make you stay or make the other come back.
dude, where's the friends-till-we-grow-white-hair-saggy-breasts-saggy-dick promise?
and what do you mean by you will have to live your own life now?
huh?
you're such a disappointment.
stop being a bitch to me.

happy birthday saffy.
hope the cupcakes i made were nice.
:D
tho i know Petes was saying that i should add in tonnes more chocolate.
damn i should have taken the picture of those cupcakes.
the nices i've ever made i tell you.
:DDDD
and also the cutest HAHAHA. -.-
BYE.

2008-10-20T12:01:00.003+08:00

“Trust amongst human beings acts as a lubricant does for the machines.”
and
“Doubts are far more cruel
than the worst of truths.”

i think somehow shukur's pissed at me for breaking my promise.
eeeeeyk.
ahhh~ farna go bang your head against the wall.go go.
anyway, today's my off day. :D
meeting mr fazzy wazzy and zully(hopefully he turns up) later to celebrate faz's belated birthday.
see i'm nice i still do make time for friends.
baking a cake later once my sister gets home from school.
and as of now, i'm going to go have some rest that i've been needing all this while.
bye.

What is it about you that has commandeered my brain?
just yesterday i started missing you all over again,
although we're perfect strangers now. ):

2008-10-19T11:51:00.003+08:00

some idiots out there are having a super hard time deciding to or not to.
pffft.
whacks heads/
to or not to what?
get into a relationship.
to tell you people its up to you people to decide.not me.duhhh.
but here's a tip.
if you know you wouldn't stay long in a r/s(which usually happens), tell him you prefer having a dating status.
set?
then if he ask you why.ask him; how long do you think our r/s last?days or months?
and if he tries to sweet talk and say something like this; infinity or he say til marriage(what crap)
tell him; prove to me by dating me first, we'll see how far we'll go.
:D
and to those whose r/s can last up til at least a year.
congrats.
that's only the start, there's more coming from where it starts.
and if you think you've found "the one". think twice.what did you say?that guy's cute?or hot?haha.
say only if you've found "the one" only if your eyes stops looking at other boys.
i'm sure i won't say i've found "the one" any time sooner or even later on :P

bye. i've got work from 4 til 2 am.
pfffffft.

2008-10-18T15:33:00.005+08:00

discomfort.
envy.
misses.

seeing him there right in front of me sometimes hurts.
why? it just makes me miss him.
those memories.the times we had.bla bla yadaaa daa daaa
i know its been quite sometime already actually months to be precise.
both having our own means of life.
not only that, he's found someone new.
do you know how much i envy her sometimes?
not trying to be a stalker here but it just so happen that i found out?
also not that i want to know whats going on in his life but information come to me as and when they like.
they come at the point of time when i really can't be bothered anymore.
and those mean words i pointed out to him sometimes, well actually most of the time aren't really coming out from me, those are lies i managed to come out with to somehow show the world i've moved on.
but, i lie about hating him and i lie about getting over him.
i know what a jerk he is but no matter how many bad points he have, i just can't help not hating him.
the whole purpose of this post isn't to tell everyone i want him back(if you know who he is)
i'm just wanting to let go of this off my chest.
yes.
so i need not need any comments coming out from you humans.
like no; please-grow-up-and-get-yourself-a-life-farna(s) or come-on-farna-don't-think-about-it-already(s)
bye.

2008-10-17T09:59:00.002+08:00

yesterday's meeting at big splash wasn't so bad.
discussed about the upcoming events.
Christmas promotions.
yes.
christmas promotion.
toffee nut's coming back oh yeah.
:DDDD
sadly peppermint's ain't coming back this year.
sad or what.
then after all those discussions, we proceeded celebrating the September and October birthdays.
everything was suppose to end at 8.
but with all those picture taking and fooling around and walking back to get to the bus stop it ended at 10 plus.
after which, i didn't proceed to meet the usuals at kallang.
cause i know there's no point going since all of them are also about to leave as they've got school today.
and today's my off day as well.
jalaning raya with the usuals again :DD.

and to faz: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!another year of celebrating your birthday with me.YAY. :D.so this means we've known each other for a year or more now.best! cyber world ain't so bad after all ay? especially to be able to find such friends like you.[:

2008-10-15T22:38:00.003+08:00

work's been normal.
faris came down for interview just now.
along with yazid and syam.
:D
and i hope hope hope he'll get the job.
why?
so that i have someone i know working with me.
yes yes.
fingers crossed.
and also just now shahrul(not rivera) and company came down to study.
it was a so called surprise turn up.
its been awhile since i last saw that bacin.
irritant.
met for awhile and bid goodbye with hugs.
[:
so tomorrow's my off day.
yay.
but i've got to attend a meeting at big splash.
pfffffffft.
six til late.
crazy or what.
i'm so going to make the usuals come down.maybe ah.
and before that i might be meeting faz to pass his present.
i miss him oi.
:D

annoying is what you are.
i don't need you to update me about you and your shits.
don't you just get it what it meant by its all over?
and as of now i'm putting a full stop to everything.
go play big fuck somewhere else.
you think i care about you and your money and your life?
PLEASE.
fancy you creating a huge din out of a small thing.
get a life and grow up.
!!!!!

2008-10-14T11:01:00.005+08:00

i'll take back what i said earlier on.
you're annoying.
what i've heard about you all along is true.
and hey about your new girl?
HAH.
please la grow up.
you think i'm jealous?
i'm not one bit jealous.
you think i want you so much?
oh please.
if boys have lusts.
why can't girls?
like for eg. when a boy have feelings on this particular girl but actually his dick is on another girl.
(not practically dick dick if you get what i mean.)
i'm just letting go off my lust on you.
yes.
i'll be a fool to actually give myself all out to you.
oh well.
just good luck with life dude.
oh i just love my friends.
continue being a WORLD PEACE-R yeah?
haha.

yesterday was a spend-the-day-with-the-samdols-and-dolmats day.
first was at work;
shahrul,dan and azhar.
i swear the store can turn upside down with them running it.
haha.
then after work;
yazid, syam, faris and din.
:DD
okay bye.
i'm off to work soon.

ahmad.

2008-10-14T09:39:00.003+08:00

i've finally spent time with the usuals.
one thing in my list that's been checked.
after the rayaing with the usuals, faris and kamal,
yesterday yazid, syam, din my sis and arina came down to visit me at work.
BY FORCE.
faris was on the way but by the time he reach it'll be abit late.
so we proceeded kallang instead to meet the others.
shikin didn't turn up.
but its okay baby.
another time kay?
raya outing was fun.
really.
i'll upload pictures once i get them from khalis.
another raya outing this friday :DD
one thing why i love my friends;
they make me smile no matter how moodless i am.
thanks people.
okay bye i'm going off to get ready for work.

so much for things being okay huh.
it's true that i listen to my friends.
why?
they are the ones who would always be there for me.
they've been thru hard times with me so obviously i choose to listen to them.
but it wouldn't be fair if i don't listen to your points.
i want to be fair.
but its up to you.
i'm fine and will always be fine.
cause this thing is nothing compared to how i last got hurt.
but who's telling the truth?you?them?
up yours.
i won't make this thing bother me so much.
i'll keep myself busy with work.

2008-10-12T10:54:00.004+08:00

i felt bad yesterday.
even though after shukur had bought the movie tickets i last minute told him i wanna go home,
cause of the fear of waking up late to meet the usuals for jalan raya.
til today i haven't forgiven myself.
shukur i'm so sorry and i've made my promise that i'll make it up for yesterday.
serious.
pffft.
farna, you're so disappointing.
shit you farna.
he had been so nice so as to fetch you and this is what he gets,
getting ditched at the very last minute.
sheesh.
please learn how to sacrifice for others farna.
be nice.
anyway yesterday work was okay minus the fact that i was quiet.
in which my colleagues find it awkward and they think its so not me.
so i told them what i was going through.yadaaa daaa daaa.
they helped me cheer up.thanks humans.[:
saffy has made an early invitation to everyone to celebrate her birth day at Double O.
that girl i swear is a hardcore clubber.
never misses any ladies night on any thursdays.free what. :D
and babe, i'll bake you a cake.promise.[:
okay i'm off to get ready to jalan raya with the usuals.
meeting up at shikin's place.
BYEBYE.

everything's fine now.i'm glad.
kill me, if i ever find fault again.
farna's a bitch.tell me in the face when it happens again okay baby?.

ryan,i love you too.
no worries everything will be fine.
you're old enough to know how to settle things.
and i will ALWAYS be there for you and i'll support any of your decisions.
like how you will ALWAYS be there for me.
i miss you.<3

2008-10-10T20:53:00.002+08:00

PMS.
fuck, i'm not in the mood.
work's fine.
and i'm fine.
i've this mood swing going on.
but somehow its not just any mood swing.
i just can't stand people nowadays.
pfffft.
i'm off now,
working tomorrow from 11 to 8.
shukur's fetching me.
awww how nice.
catching a movie after that.
he'll be calling later.
BYE.

ryan baby, i need you.
i'm feeling out of place.
try calling me as soon as you read this.
i wanna pour out everything to you.i miss you.

2008-10-09T21:18:00.005+08:00

i finally friggin did something to my hair now.
want to see?
BE PATIENT.
i'll upload pictures soon.
i swear i should have curls on my hair.
TSK.
hanah i didn't do what i was supposed to do to my hair.
ahh.
shit ah.
they all say i look better with my current hair at the moment.
but i'm going to get it curled soon.
pfffffft.
my sister fell in love with the bapok hair dresser.
ANUAR ZAIN.
=.=
inside joke.
pictures up soon.
:D
and aly i love you.
thanks for accompanying me go to the salon with my beylo-ed ass-ed sister.[:
make sure we make it a culture to ALWAYS go to the hair salon together.
ALWAYS.

i'm sorry if i'm a bit of a pain in the ass at times.

2008-10-08T21:50:00.003+08:00

saffy christabelle amalina shahrul and charlene made my day today at work.
even though i was being a selenge bacin, yet again.
i'm glad they are patient i tell you.
YAY and i finally get to meet syam.
oh i miss that gila man.
because of him i got myself an ANIMAL shirt.BINATANG betul. :D
my sis came with annisa all and chris gave them discount.
tsk.
then later my sis got a free drink from amalina.
like i tell you that woman forever giving free drinks like crazy.
and she still got the heart to say i'm very thick skin.(muka tak tahu malu.)
tsk.
saffy was like asking me to follow all the girls, tomorrow, go Double O and the Arena.
she was like, "farna go steal ic from someone. tag along uh."
=.=
that woman.
i love her backside.
and long john boy was nice today as to give us free meal.AGAIN.
:D
he was smiling like nobody's business when he saw me.
GILA.
haha.
and also FINALLY later the usuals are going to have a conference call.
YAY i am SOOOO happy.
i miss them like crazy know. :DDDDDDDDD

slow and steady is what i prefer things to be.
i won't say that i love you, cause it'll be a lie.
but i want you to know that you do still play a part in my life.

2008-10-07T21:37:00.002+08:00

wouldn't it be nice if i could get on a hot air balloon,
watch the sunset,
notice the sky,
wishes that the time would stop,
be with someone i love,
cuddle,
and just be ourselves.

bye.

2008-10-07T11:33:00.004+08:00

last night.
shagged shaggy shaggiest.
=.=
i had a good sleep thru out the whole night.
i dreamt of attachment boy last night. damn bloody random i tell you.
he actually asked me out.well yeah in my dreams that is.
haha.
yeah, i heard he's coming for another attachment real soon. :DDDDD
we'll see if he will really ask me out for real.
[:
haha wth farna wth.
i was kidding about the whole asking out part, but it'll be nice if he does.
finally today's my off day.
yes.
a rest day.
to chill.
to relax.
and let loose.
nice.
i miss girlfriends and i miss boyfriends ):
syam said that he would drop by to see me once he starts work at the area i'm working at.
the other day khalid drop by to say hi.
and afew days back hanah and nadine drop by.
and two days ago ryan left )))):
oh i miss you people dearly.

it's not all about sweet talkings and being sweet.
it's about who you really are.
i feel as tho you aren't yourself at times.
or maybe you're trying hard to be yourself.
i don't know why but i still need some more time.
and i really hope that you aren't expecting anything coming out of this.
and like i once told you, lets just leave everything to fate.
if its not meant to be then its not.
but if it is, i hope it lasts.
i know you'd be reading this, i hope you don't take this as a strong warning or whatsoever.
I'm just telling you.

2008-10-05T22:40:00.003+08:00

check out the time. 11pm. i need to catch up with more sleeps.
i'm shagged.
and yet i'm not asleep.
i'm still over at my god parents'
daa daa daa daa.
i managed to get myself off from work early just now.
thanks Dan.[:
besides that, i made a fool of myself at work.
they all had a good laugh but somehow in a good way since not all of them are in the mood and i kinda made their day. [:
and long john boy finally talked to me =.=
he's shy.what the hell.
to ryan; i'm going to miss you. bon voyage.i love you.
i'm going home soon.
BYEBYE.

you puzzle me at times.
i'm having insecurities.
i'm still doubting you.

2008-10-05T02:20:00.005+08:00

i just got back from work.
tired or what.
i've got to go to god dad's place later in the morning.
then work.
i think if i were to get up late i'll just head there after work.
high possibility.
my legs are seriously aching.
today i stood up the whole time i was working.
gerek or what.
today amalina was the manager on duty.[:

ama farna do you know there's this guy from long john who likes you?
me yeah i heard from saffy.she told me there's this guy who's eyeing on me.but i thought she was kidding.
ama *laughs*
me *stares blankly at her.*

oh well.
i'm going to go shower now.
BYE.

you now have your answer, so fret no more.
i want you to keep your promise.

2008-10-04T14:02:00.001+08:00

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
-Anonymous

2008-10-04T10:24:00.003+08:00

last night ryan gave me a random phone call.
somehow even though i was very tired i managed to answer the phone upon seeing his name on the idd.

me hello?
him are you asleep?
me *moans*what do you thing?
him yeah.
me but its okay, we'll talk for awhile kay?
him babe i miss you.and i'm leaving soon.how?
me i miss you more my friend. drop by my house on monday?
him farna, i'm leaving on sunday.
me huh?!oh yah! i forgot.*sits straight right up.*
him i thought of asking you out tmr.or like can you send me off on sunday.
me i'm working tmr and sunday as well.
him how i wish i were to be your manager and fire you.
me why?
him so that you'll have the time for me.

=.=
we continued talking for awhile more and dude i'm really sorry ):
i'll try making it up to you with something.i'll try.
so earlier on of the day yesterday hanah and nadine came to my workplace and hanah got her green tea frappe already.
oh do i miss those girls so much.
then after work head down to city hall to meet naufal.
[:
he kept me company thru out the night.
thanks dear boy for the chocolates also.
I take a day to soak you in
For a while, I'm hanging on the best I can
Let go.
Cause maybe if I felt it once,
Then I could somehow feel it again.
And honestly don't lose your faith in me, yeah
You know you just can't say you never felt the same thing then as soon as i reached home i hit the sack. bahh~

2008-10-03T09:35:00.002+08:00

do you know the feeling when you found out someone who you were once close with still cares for you?
like when he or she told someone that he trusts him to take care of you and not break your heart.
and that if anything were to happen to his best friend, which refers to you, he'll look for that particular someone.
it felt great.
really it does.
i swear from now on no matter what, i know who my best friends really are and who really care for me.
and i really love them.
[:

2008-10-02T11:55:00.003+08:00

when deciding has always been a pain in the ass.

even though i slept late last night, was having a latenight phone call with naufal, i woke up early.
really seriously early.
showered ate breakfast watched tveee.
IM-ed with kamal and ryan blog and later get ready to go to work.
naufal's fetching me later and sending me off to work.
i know how sweet and nice.
=.=
ryan's leaving in two days and i can't find a time for him.
i feel bad.
):
can't you stay a little weeee bit longer?
please?
pulls long face.
RAYA sucked this year.
everyone seems dead.
lesser green packets.
and i look OLD.
BYE.
random

2008-09-28T21:57:00.003+08:00

a reminder of the past?i don't know.but i remember them vividly.

my day was spent well by sleepingggggg.
god do i feel good after that.
i'm so going to swensens.
=.=
and as of today i officially look abnormal.
why?
take a look at me when you see me.
bahhh~
BTW selamat hari raya to all umat islams.
and take a sneak peek at what my sis said on her blog.RETARD,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF TAIK DAN BACIN.(MAAF YE)
MAHA SEMUA UMAT-UMAT ISLAM YANG DAPAT DUIT SEMOGA KAYA-RAYA.
DAN HIDUP TUA BANGKA.
MACAM ROCKERRRR. (REMEMBER ROCK NEVER DIES)

mind the super green font.
she's crazy for the green ang baos.
siao.
yeah.
2nd day raya onwards i'm back working.
so to me no difference mann.
no raya feeling this year.
i shall schedule my working days properly next week.
i miss shikin i miss hanah i miss nadine i miss aly and i miss the usuals. ):
i've got no time for conference calls now boys.
by the time i get home i'm dead tired.
i hit the sack almost immediately.
i am sooooo sorry.
i'll find time for you guys and girls real soon.
PROMISE.
jalan raya perhaps?[:
BYE folks.
HAPPY HAPPY RAYA.

2008-09-27T13:11:00.002+08:00

prelude.
i'm shagged.
i miss friends.
i miss attachment boy.
i miss you.
=.=
BYE.

2008-09-25T15:08:00.003+08:00

feel the pleasure of cupped breasts.
god i'm not feeling well.
was feverish last night, today i've got this headache that clings on to me even after work.
i had opening shift today.
every thing went on fine, my drinks all went fine not until during lunch time.
it was like during slam that i hated most.
3 to 4 customers at one go.fuhh!(considered not many at all it's just a mini slam)
major headache.(considering that i'm still new.)
the time that i could puke anytime especially when now that i'm not well.
thank god the dear manager on duty, rashydan, is kind.
thanks for being so caring.
nyehaawww.
yeah pei wen is nice as well.
it was my first time being partnered with her today.
instead of having shahrul today, azhar was in.
another funny fella.
RAMADHON.
inside joke.
so now i'm getting ready to meet the usuals.[:
its been quite some time since we really last hang out.
so today breaking fast together.
despite me not feeling well.
i'm nice i know.
:p
tomorrow pre closing shift.
BYE.

come for attachment again dear boy.imissyou.[:

2008-09-23T20:53:00.004+08:00

good day people.[:
today was the most craziest work day ever.
especially when three gundus get the same working shift.[Dan call us the selenge(s)]
that is me, rashydan and shahrul.
haha.
Dan made my day early in the morning.
the moment i got in for work. *smiles widely*
he actually locked me up in the store room when we wanted to get some stuffs there.
"farna can you get for me that," i turned and walk in.
slam! he locked me in.
and he had a good laugh all the way and called me dumb.
TSK.
thats not all.
after that we were all talking when they all made me laugh[i was sitting on a trolley that was placed against the wall] when the trolley, which i think hated me, slipped and i fell on my ass sitting on top of the trolley.
imagine.
shahrul was ROLLING ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING.
yes he really did.
nevermind i was the joker of the day while Dan was the JOKE of the day.
while shahrul is an extra.HAHA
tsk.
but yeah they made my day today.
:D
BYE.

attchment boy.[:

2008-09-22T10:20:00.004+08:00

Your presence isn't what kills me It's that artistic gleam That's taking over my scenery Dream by dream
If its not the fact that I'm a wee bit younger Or the truth that I'm so naive
:D

text messaged best friend yesterday like finally.
dude, finally you have the time ah.
had conversations about "how are you(s)" "how's life(s)" "whats hot now?(s)"
yeah and you guessed it, i told him about attachment boy.
:D
IGNORE.
i want to shop shop shop today.
[:
perhaps get a new top?bottom?shoes?
idk.
we'll see.
but my shopping list of the day only have two main items: new skirt and shoes.
i die die want to get both of these items.
seriously.
O_-

2008-09-21T12:51:00.003+08:00

:D
i dreamt of attachment boy last night.
oh whatever.
haha.
i woke up at 11 just now bathed and now reading up on my recipes.
bahhh~
off to work soon.
and oh yess tomorrow's off day,
shopping day yipeeyay.^^
just now my nbcb father gets on my nerves.
fuck you, go get your stuffs right first before correcting mine,
thank god i'm working and i don't fucking have to face your fucking face everyday.
gahhhhh~
byebye.

2008-09-20T20:23:00.004+08:00

i'm tired and shaaaaaaaaaaged.
morning shifts are killing me.
but all that minus all the fun i have.
:D
rashydan is oh so crazy.
he is alot like me.
really.
he, like me, can't laugh with things hanging down our necks.
haha.
cause it'll just make us laugh even harder even if the jokes aren't that funnyyyy.
sharul on the other hand is a girl magnet.
shikin thinks he is cute.=.=
i don't think he is THAT cute.but acceptable.
i still think that attachment guy is WAYYYYYYY cuter,
really.
:D
and there's the others.people like amalina and yada yada.
she offer free drinks like its nothing, provided she thinks you're nice:P.haha.
okay thats all.
i'm tired.
i want to go rest and sleep thru till morning.
closing tomorrow.[:
BYE.

2008-09-18T20:47:00.002+08:00

yes ahhhhh~
i'm 300 bucks richer.
oh yeah.
2 more weeks i get another pay.
oh yeah.
[:
duit duit duit sudah ada.
haha.
lol
visited cousin just now.
he's no longer immobilized.
can walk already ah.
just now makan like never eat before.
gundu.
and to your dear wife..HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance.
when you're well come visit me get your fave drink from me.
haha.
bye.i want to rest.

starbucks boy, i miss you. HAHA

2008-09-17T17:51:00.007+08:00

if only..[:

so yesterday not only did i had fun at work.
i met my ladies yesterday, to celebrate hanah baby's birthday.
baby, collect your green tea frappe from me soon.
i mean it.
haha.
had dinner over at her place and we all went separate ways.
i miss you girls so much.
dates soon please.
and nadine, i want the pictures! :D
so after hanah and nadine left, me and shikin went off to meet yazid, fadhli, syam, khalid, din and khalis.
they went off for terawih.
and we girls went off to get some private times together[:
then after that home.
i took the same bus back with khalid.
irritant.
stop calling me starbucks girl you binatang boy!
burrrrh~
i got news from my mom that cousin got admitted into the hospital.
i heard it was bad.bahh.
get well soon dude.
btw my pay check's here! oh yes FINALLY.
bye.
starbuck's boy stucked in my head.

2008-09-16T23:26:00.004+08:00

did in-store training today.
it was kinda weird at first, but i got the hang of it later on.
how lucky can the start of my job be?
first day at work, a guy from shaw towers working on attachment in the store i'm working in came in for attachment.
i swear he is god damn it cute.
really.
seriously.
especially when he smile.
INSTANT CRUSH.
i won't stalk him but i'll find a way to know him better.
AS A FRIEND.
:D
while working did some bitching.
nice people.
[:
hit it off quite well for first timers.
two off days and i'm working opening shifts for friday and saturday, and closing shift on sunday.
so long.
i wanna drool and dream of ahmad.haha. [:
repeat and rewind,"His infant school smile caught my eyes.
cheesy yet sweet. "

2008-09-15T20:58:00.003+08:00

Future documents will be action, thoughts and true love. Washing machines are guitars. And light become sound. CDs will be sold as donuts. And pigs shall know beauty.

today's training was the funnest.
i guess.
made a few cups of espressos;
Cafe Latte,Caffe Mocha, Caramel Macchiato and Cappuccino.
sadly.
i threw all of them away thinking i'm fasting BUT as soon as i got back my menses came.
=.=
so tomorrow my in-store training starts-at 8
burrrrhhh~
bye folks.

dude, you've got an over greased, over saturated brain.SCREW YOU

2008-09-14T22:14:00.001+08:00

His infant school smile caught my eyes.
cheesy yet sweet.

2008-09-13T22:44:00.005+08:00

innocence and purity was what got me attracted.
difficult conversations that i can't stand,
and are killing me.

so yesterday's training ended beyond time expected.
TSK.
what we did?
drink 8 small cups of coffee.
was made to different shape the commercial(budget)coffee and the high quality coffee.
trust me.
my taste bud was sore.
but you know something?
i was told that i'm the best slurper in class.
haha.they all made fun of me being the BEST kisser.=.=
so anyway.
i'll be having my last training at the HQ on monday.
which would be the expresso class.
then the next day i'll be back at the store to do in store training.
oh yeah. :D
so bye.

2008-09-12T14:50:00.002+08:00

i am so S-L-E-E-P-Y
some idiot who happen to be irwan, make me have only 5 hours of sleep.
why?
i had to accompany him to starbucks
where?
i won't tell you people, ask me yourself :p or another option ask irwan. :p
why?
he wanted a job so i told him why not try at the place i'm working in since they needed people.
and so i recommended him to my SM.
i went down all the way to tpy just to meet him.
and that idiot was late. TSK.
promise to meet at 10 but he only came an hour later.
more TSK.after that took an hour journey to ___.
reached. he was interviewed.
and guess what!? he got the job.
BACKSIDE!
all it takes is an hour of interview and he got it.
anyway its all thanks to me.
pffffffffffffffffffffffffT.with a capital T.
now i'm back home.
going to get some sleep.
and then later head to starbucks HQ for my training.
goodbye.

2008-09-11T12:21:00.002+08:00

trust me.
i'm dead tired?
well not because the trainings that i went for are exhausting.
its just the time of the training is just err late?
okay what ever.
training at the starbucks headquarters have been real interesting and er fun?
yeah.
somehow.
i've not been home the past few days.
and today, now i just got home and going off for training at six later till ten plus?
okay so long for now.
i'm blank.
BYE.

2008-09-04T18:54:00.002+08:00

i've been busy.helped out over at grandma's after she just got discharged.
more towards babysitting the little mentel actually.
also, with a new job now.
i'm going to be even more busier?
yes.
i'll be starting work at starbucks real soon.
which outlet?
haha.go figure it out yourselves.
i'll be having my trainings next week for four days.
and i'm on my way to be a barista.
nothing to be proud of actually.
i'm just glad i've found a proper job that i'll stay for quite some time.
and at the mean time, i'll also might be trying out for the job that would be held during the F1 race.
waiting for news from hanah.
anyway i'm off now.
[:
bye.

2008-09-01T15:20:00.007+08:00

i'll grow you hair.i will and i will fix you

so today's the first day of fasting.meaning no kissing no making out no hickeys.aww how sad :p
things went on well.
from eating during dawn and then back to sleep after that.
grandma's still over at the hospital.
prolly staying for another week or so.
now i'm currently over at my godparents'.
to drop by and say hello that is and also to waste time before break fasting at nenek's house.
that little mentel(hanah and me named my baby cousin that) is ever so naughty but adorable i swear.she's drawing all over the laptop with this ink pen and just turned off the laptop on me.ass.haha.
anyway one of this days prolly will go out and break fast with the baduts.
maybe.we'll see how.
and to those taking their n levels tomorrow goodluck fellow humans.
may you all pass with flying colours.
be it purple, yellow or pink?
[:
with love farna.HAHAHA.
bye.
happy fasting fellow muslims.^^

sat's pictures :D

2008-08-31T12:41:00.002+08:00

Bring love, bring change.
Let's end your selfish games.
good afternoon fellow humans.(:
yesterday just as planned went to visit grandma over at the hospital and spent half of the day there.
she looks better now.thank god.
after that headed to city hall to meet syam, fadhli and din.
then to baybeats then meet irwan all.(irwan's friend is pretty.i swear ^^)
soon after hanah and shikin joined us <3
so did khalid.(was suppose to meet him at his work place but neither shikin nor hanah did either.=p)
had a whole night of fooling around, joking around and yes finally i managed to get photos taken with the baduts.
:D
but yeah they're all in my phone.
i'll upload them soon folks.
anyway i'm off now.heading to the hospital to visit grandma again(:
family quality time.
goodbye.

2008-08-30T11:00:00.002+08:00

big bang boom.
yesterday was teachers day.
and i went to ftp(not my ex sch).
well this is because syam wanted me to tag along so i did.
after that had lunch and headed off to orchard.
and oh oh i finally get to meet hanah and nadine :D
huge hugs.
after orchard had a long retarded crazy long walk to city hall.
:D
you should see what i meant by that.
everyone was hyper active yesterday and it beats me why.
anyway after that met aly for awhile to say our hellos and byes and hugs.
then headed home, we didn't drop by baybeats as planed.maybe today we'll drop by.
after i visit grandma at the hospital and then to meet khalid at his workplace.
so bye for now.
:D

2008-08-27T18:29:00.001+08:00

ulcer's killing me[read previous post]
i'm gg blind soon.
kiss my eye someone.

one. prelude
two. foreplay
three. sex
four. interlude
five orgasm
six. afterglow

random.
bye.

2008-08-27T12:15:00.005+08:00

i want her hair.bahhh.grow hair grow.i want to fix you.

bing bang boom.
ryan was on the phone with me just now.
a random one at it.
long distance call is expensive dude.
so don't waste money.understand?
haha.anyway, i'm glad you called cause i miss you so so so much. :D
pay me a visit real soon kaykay?
conversation went on like this, "how are you?" "miss me?" "was ___ a hardcore kisser or a gentle kisser?" -.- and yada yada yada. and we hung up the phone. [:
just so you know, i went to the doctor AGAIN early this morning.
i swear the doctor isn't gentle.
he flip my eyelids, poke my eyeballs,put some green liquid in my eye.
burrrhhh~
and the outcome? "farhana,you've got an ulcer IN your eyeball. Not outside or beside its inside.come back in about 2 or 3 days time if theres no sign of getting well.i'll hand you over to a specialist."
wth?
he make it sound as if i'm gg to be blind.

bye.

2008-08-26T11:44:00.003+08:00

i didn't attend work today,
and i feel good.....
i swear.
my left eye is still hurting tho.
as my vision weren't so clear i bumped into a few things yesterday.
one example was the; wall
thank god no one saw it.
imagine me bumping into the wall.
have a good laugh.
i told syam about it and he did have a good laugh.ass.
so yesterday was one out of two late night conference we all had.
yes.
me and syam(not forgetting yazid) helped faris come out with lyrics to a song.
trying to fit in words into a sentence is funny.
haha.
i swear some of the sentences the boys came out with were nonsensical.
they DON'T make sense.
and this is where the girls(me and my sis)come in handy.
we corrected every mistake they made and help them construct the sentences perfectly(okay maybe not that perfectly but at least its a proper sentence which make sense)
also, we don't only correct them we also did some brainstorming okay.
=p
in between of all the brainstorming the boys also did joke around and made fun of the way i exaggerate my words.backsides
the conference call ended with the lyrics almost done and faris saying thank you and yazid fast asleep snoring away(typical) and syam? only god knows.
haha.

mommy i want to get a driver's license for my 21st birthday pretty please. :D

bye.

2008-08-25T17:22:00.004+08:00

when touching it feels as good as being touched.HAHA
yes im at home.
why?
i'm sick.
what?
sore eyes, flu and yes sore throat.
my manager got pissed with me for not attending work.
and prolly is even more pissed that i didn't reply nor answer her calls and text messages.
hello?
i'm sick here madam.
you can't find last minute replacement that one your problem.
okay?
pffft.
annoying.
i'm quiting the job.i think.[on the other hand it doesn't make sense to quit cause its just a stupid damn atrium which last for a week.]
i'm still thinking if i should attend work tomorrow.
i was advised by someone to just quit.burrhurr?
also i've asked syu to intro me to the clinic that she's working in.
so then eventually maybe i'll just work with syu there. :D
i hope hope hope the doctor or maybe perhaps the person who owned that clinic will call me asap.
and besides the clinic's not far.
which means i won't be wasting money on transportation :D
and also meaning more money to SPEND!.
haha.

i wish i was as invisible as you make me feel.

2008-08-24T14:10:00.003+08:00

[edited post]
i want this.
i want that.
saya mahu ini.
saya mahu itu.
wa yau chi ke.
wa yau na ke.[i hantam the spelling but somewhat the pronunciation's there]
yes, i want a lot of things.
a new camera.
a new phone.
that Lenovo laptop.[this one's important.a must have]
i want it to rain $ in my room. screw rich bastards. pffffffft
busy week ahead.
starting work at woodlands tomorrow.
dang it.
its so far.
burrhhh~

save me.
bye.